IDENTITY & DID (DISSOCIATIVE IDENTITY DISORDER)

Let’s Be Vulnerable… From My Heart To Yours…

For seemingly endless months, if not years, this question has hounded my mind, “What is the purpose for my life?” … Basically, “Why on earth did I go through so much in my life? Why? What did I do wrong to deserve all of this… I was just a child… and growing up, all I…

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Never Be Ashamed Of A Scar

NEVER BE ASHAMED OF A SCAR. IT SIMPLY MEANS THAT YOU WERE STRONGER THAN WHAT TRIED TO HURT YOU. Yes, this is a photograph of my arm. I’m not oblivious to the looks I get when people see it. Akward stares; thoughts racing through their minds. At first, I felt so ashamed. I knew what…

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Who Am I?

I am so thankful to those people who sent so many messages, telling me that they can wholeheartedly relate to what I had written in my Book, Misunderstood. Even though I aim to let others know that they are not alone, the feedback received also, in turn, made me feel like I am also not…

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Unspoken Secrets Of The Past

I must admit that I did not expect to be where I am right now. I did not expect to come face-to-face, head on, with the memories and turmoil from my past regarding Cecilia Steyn and the rest of the Krugersdorp Killers. I never expected that I would eventually talk about things that NO ONE…

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Anger Malfunction

I honestly think this is somewhat of a ridiculous topic but it’s come up a fair bit, so I thought I would talk about it. I seem to have an anger “malfunction” in my brain… I just don’t get angry… or, at least, it takes a LOT to FINALLY push me to that point… I’m…

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Good At Being A Loner

I’m a popular loner. I know a LOT of people but I hardly let anyone in… for various reasons. The one reason I will talk about is, simply, that I have always been this way. I’m just good at being alone… and alone, doesn’t mean lonely. Since I was born, my Mother could relate story…

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Arrived!

Right now, I’m feeling the same overwhelming emotions that all my Authors talk about when they hold their books for the first time! It’s, simply, overwhelming… This is the first time I have decided to print Leviathan Walks and Fragmented Shadows. I never considered it before but because of too many requests, well, I saw…

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The Best Friend. Let’s Start…

I can most definitely say that I wasn’t planning to start this book, The Best Friend, any time soon. It required too much “of me” mentally and emotionally to dive in… and each time I thought about how much I had to cover for this book… well, I avoided it. It is, simply, too much…

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Leviathan Walks. The Release.

It’s now just past 1am and I am glad to finally say that Leviathan Walks is ready for its re-release! In editing the last 10 or so chapters, I must admit, I found myself constantly repeating to myself, “Wow, what a messed up life I’ve lived!!!” … “How on earth am I still alive???” ……

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DID, The New Superpower?

Believe it or not, I have only started watching the “Heroes” TV Series now. Okay… so after the first few episodes, I started raising the question about the character Niki. At first, I merely thought she was just a chaotic, troubled character in the series. But as each episode unfolded, I immediately had suspicions that…

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My Mutant Genes?!

One of the “hot” topics, in my life, is why I don’t apparently seem to age… a constant question that is asked… and some have even debated it, behind closed doors, for over 17 years. Yes, people, that I know, are stuck in discussions about my age! Now, before my teenage years, I had apparently…

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You Never Know Until You Try

Looking back, my life seems like a series of “splats”. They say, “You never know, until you try,” and “If you don’t jump, then you might not fly.” I am not talking about immoral risks or anything else of the sort. Nor am I talking about utterly ridiculous attempts that you know should definitely not…

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House MD & DID

I started binge watching the series “House MD”, again. I love this series for numerous reasons: Sarcastic remarks and events from Dr House (Hugh Laurie), intense traumatic scenarios, and not to forget, also learning the different medical complications – you can actually learn quite a lot! Now, in previous times of watching this series, I…

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My Battles With Sexuality

The topic of my sexuality is, most possibly, one of the biggest issues that “wage war” on the inside of my mind, on a fairly regular basis. Sexuality, as a whole, is a massively disputed and never-ending topic world-wide as well, despite the fact that diverse forms of sexuality is becoming more and more acceptable…

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United States Of Tara. Wow!

Over the last few days, I have been binge watching the series “United States of Tara.” I don’t even know how many times I have watched this series, since it came out; and yes, I binge watch it each time. Why? Simply, because it’s brilliant. Not accurate, but still brilliant. What is “United States of…

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DID. Thank You. But Ughhh!

This is somewhat of a sensitive topic for me but I’m also open to talking about it, about myself. For those of you who don’t know me or haven’t read other parts of my website: I have DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder), which was formally known as MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder). Now, I find myself wanting…

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Zodiac Signs. True, Not True?

One of the “hot” topics of late, is Zodiac signs. Many fully believe in them, while others dispute them altogether. Some even go as far as, daily, following horoscopes in order to figure out how to “live life”. Now, I do not fully believe nor disbelieve in Zodiac signs. I can find truth to them…

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