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Loner. A Core Reason

To sum this up, 3 words: “people scare me”. In the last while, since my post Good At Being A Loner, I felt like I should give a more “rounded” answer to this topic because I don’t like giving “half answers”… especially when wrong assumptions are made and I seem to sound “somewhat” of “something”…

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Nightmares

“To sleep or not to sleep”… that is my question lately, and more so as each day passes. I am UTTERLY exhausted! But each time I close my eyes, I don’t drift off into dreamland… I get rudely sucked into a vortex of intensely graphic nightmares… all night long. Waking up on the hour, every…

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Battling

To be honest… I am battling. Horribly. Terribly… and yet I know it’s still going to get much harder too. In these last few days, I find myself grasping for strength to carry on with The Best Friend. Since I had started this book, wounds feel like they are being ripped open. I had never…

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Unspoken Secrets Of The Past

I must admit that I did not expect to be where I am right now. I did not expect to come face-to-face, head on, with the memories and turmoil from my past regarding Cecilia Steyn and the rest of the Krugersdorp Killers. I never expected that I would eventually talk about things that NO ONE…

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What Happened?

What happened to common decency? What happened to being truthful? What happened to dignity and respect? What happened to “do unto others as you would have them done unto you”? Is it all just fictional or fantasy stories that we talk about but none of it really seems to exist on this planet? It’s just…

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Is It Time To Move?

My mind is busy today, yet often I find that I am thinking about nothing altogether as well. It’s just one of those days I guess and I am utterly exhausted too, but the one thing that keeps crossing my mind, as it does every month, is thoughts on moving… For several years now, I…

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Anger Malfunction

I honestly think this is somewhat of a ridiculous topic but it’s come up a fair bit, so I thought I would talk about it. I seem to have an anger “malfunction” in my brain… I just don’t get angry… or, at least, it takes a LOT to FINALLY push me to that point… I’m…

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Good At Being A Loner

I’m a popular loner. I know a LOT of people but I hardly let anyone in… for various reasons. The one reason I will talk about is, simply, that I have always been this way. I’m just good at being alone… and alone, doesn’t mean lonely. Since I was born, my Mother could relate story…

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Arrived!

Right now, I’m feeling the same overwhelming emotions that all my Authors talk about when they hold their books for the first time! It’s, simply, overwhelming… This is the first time I have decided to print Leviathan Walks and Fragmented Shadows. I never considered it before but because of too many requests, well, I saw…

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My Kids

I know people make jokes about this in general but, in the last few days, I realized that I REALLY do speak to my pets the exact same way as I do to people. Perhaps that’s why my pets respond differently to most other people’s pets? My pets are my kids after all. I have…

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The Best Friend. Let’s Start…

I can most definitely say that I wasn’t planning to start this book, The Best Friend, any time soon. It required too much “of me” mentally and emotionally to dive in… and each time I thought about how much I had to cover for this book… well, I avoided it. It is, simply, too much…

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Leviathan Walks. The Release

It’s now just past 1am and I am glad to finally say that Leviathan Walks is ready for its re-release! In editing the last 10 or so chapters, I must admit, I found myself constantly repeating to myself, “Wow, what a messed up life I’ve lived!!!” … “How on earth am I still alive???” ……

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The Krugersdorp Killers. A Dent In My Life

When I think about this part of my life, too many thoughts come rushing back all at once; so many thoughts that I honestly don’t even know where to begin when it comes to talking about it. I am yet to start writing my new book, The Best Friend… Why? Two reasons: I am finalizing…

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Lullaby & Goodbye

I have to pause for a moment… I am busy listening to Lullaby, by Nickelback………………… This song has me completely choked up, with memories and emotions of my past flooding back into my mind. My breathing has become shallow, my chest has become tight and tears want to come rushing back… all because it is…

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What Goes Up, Must Come Down

I am guilty! Lock me up and throw away the key! Like they say, “What goes up, must come down.” After two weeks of a sudden excessive burst of energy, redoing my entire house… and to extremes at that… my body finally hit a “crash”. Not a proper one, but a good enough one to…

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Shorts, The New Diaper!

Brace yourself for this new discovery! I don’t know why I have only thought of it now?! Shorts are… or can be… the new diaper! Yes, I’m being serious. Let me explain… when I first got my 8 year old Spaniel, he was obviously not house trained at all or, perhaps, just overly adamant that…

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Therapy Overload?

All through my life, I have had several “go to” traits when it comes to sorting out what’s going on in my life or, mostly, sorting out my thoughts. Now, I am OCD, so not being able to “physically” compartmentalize my thoughts into categories, sub categories and, basically, an overall mind map, at the very…

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DID, The New Superpower?

Believe it or not, I have only started watching the “Heroes” TV Series now. Okay… so after the first few episodes, I started raising the question about the character Niki. At first, I merely thought she was just a chaotic, troubled character in the series. But as each episode unfolded, I immediately had suspicions that…

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My Mutant Genes?!

One of the “hot” topics, in my life, is why I don’t apparently seem to age… a constant question that is asked… and some have even debated it, behind closed doors, for over 17 years. Yes, people, that I know, are stuck in discussions about my age! Now, before my teenage years, I had apparently…

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You Are Loved And You Are Important

Busy reading The Love That Saved Me From The Love Of My Life, by Nomzamo Mosia. Each one of Nomzamo’s books have impacted me deeply, so I thought it was important to share this one chapter, from her book: We walk this journey of life not knowing the Love of God, the Love of The…

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