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Why I Choose To Speak Up

“Silence gives consent,” could not be a more accurate phrase when it comes Cecilia Steyn. Throughout countless scenarios, each of us, who were in her group, remained silent because we were still trying to wrap our reality around her bizarre reality. We could not dismiss the foolproof dramatic and extensive…

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Calling My Bluff? … The Hierarchy Of The Triquetra

So… someone, linked within these murderous groups, decided to “call my bluff” after my last post… piling on with intimidation and everything that they could to break me into being quiet. I KEEP MY WORD: This is The Hierarchy of the Triquetra in South Africa… (Click on the image to…

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A WARNING To The “Elite” & Their “Minions”

This is a VERY CLEAR WARNING to the “Elite” and their “minions” in this on going murder saga: YOUR SECRET HAS BEEN EXPOSED! And it was NOT through one of those who you have intimidated; it was through one of your own! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! Your continuous intimidation, harassment and…

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Exposing the CORE of Electus Per Deus

The FULL RAW truth, of what has happened and what is still happening, runs FAR DEEPER than all the realms of Dante’s Inferno… just as Cecilia said it would. Exposing the CORE, is only the CRACK of the TIP of the iceberg… Electus Per Deus (EPD) translated from Latin, means,…

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Some Scars Don’t Heal

As much as I would like to say, “I’m over it,” I know that I can’t. In this moment, right now, memories randomly started surfacing… and, yet again, I realize that I am still far from over it. After all this time, after years of counselling sessions, after talking repeatedly…

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Is The Volcano About To Explode?

I officially have to voice the “weirdness” of this… since doing podcasts and since Devilsdorp aired July 2021, I had gotten used to seeing a certain number of viewers/listeners daily and from certain countries too. It was too predictable… every day. BUT then… from around 8pm 31 Dec 2021… jaw…

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Dear Daughter…

Dear Daughter… Born of me or not, Know that I see you as mine. Dear Daughter… Even though we have not met, Know that I am excitedly counting the seconds until then. Dear Daughter… Know that you are not a mistake nor a burden, You are a choice, A priceless…

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I Am Not A Hero. I Am Willing…

Since being involved in the Krugersdorp Killer’s case, I have received countless overwhelming responses from so many people across the globe. I have honestly lost count of how many messages I have received. Person after person sent incredibly supportive messages. They were overwhelming but these messages have helped spur me…

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“Is The World Ready?”

Over the last who knows how many days right now, I have scanned through the seemingly endless topics that I need to write about regarding the Krugersdorp Killers, or more specifically, Cecilia Steyn…. from the beginning all the way up until recent publicized events. I desperately wish I could just…

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Let’s Be Vulnerable… From My Heart To Yours…

For seemingly endless months, if not years, this question has hounded my mind, “What is the purpose for my life?” … Basically, “Why on earth did I go through so much in my life? Why? What did I do wrong to deserve all of this… I was just a child……

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Time. Perfectly Irrelevant.

As most mornings go around 3am, I wake up with my mind on overdrive… sorting puzzle pieces and trying to make some kind of sense on some random topic or other. I think consciously, I have way too much on my mind; usually, a chaotic whirlwind of thoughts regarding work,…

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Rock Bottom

A month and 1 day ago, my grandmother passed away. I will never forget the moment I found out. I cried so hard. I hit the walls saying, “It isn’t true!!!”… and cried more. The tears did not stop. One of 3 most loved, most teasured, most irreplaceable people in…

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Earth’s Greatest Treasure. Heaven’s Most Beautiful Angel.

How do you describe a pain, when there are no words for it? How do you describe a loss, when your mind still wages war trying to make you believe it’s not true? How do you describe the most incredible grandmother that ever existed? You can’t, because the dictionary simply…

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Radio Interview 93.6fm Helderberg Radio

Live Radio interview with 93.6fm Radio Helderberg on 25 Feb 2021, talking about Cecilia Steyn and the Krugersdorp Killers. Candice Rijavec · Radio Interview 93.6fm Helderberg Radio 25 Feb 2021

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This Is FAR HARDER Than I Let People Realize

Record. Pause. Heart Racing. Tears welling up. Lump in my throat. Record. Pause. Sobbing my eyes out. Delete… Try again… Talking about all of these things regarding Cecilia Steyn is far harder for me than I let people realize. I could not put it into typed out words, but I…

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Never Be Ashamed Of A Scar

NEVER BE ASHAMED OF A SCAR. IT SIMPLY MEANS THAT YOU WERE STRONGER THAN WHAT TRIED TO HURT YOU. Yes, this is a photograph of my arm. I’m not oblivious to the looks I get when people see it. Akward stares; thoughts racing through their minds. At first, I felt…

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The Krugersdorp Killers. Reality Check

This story about the Krugersdorp Killers seems to be a never ending part of my life. I was part of this story for 4 years. Escaped and helped investigators for the next 9 or so years… over an entire decade, seemingly “dedicated” to things revolving around Cecilia Steyn. When the…

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Near Year. Reboot

It’s finally 2021. New Year. Time for a reboot. 2020 brought many tremendous challenges for everyone. Most people are doubting and fearful of what 2021 will bring after what last year encompassed. For me, yes, 2020 had incredible challenges BUT it was actually and, in all honesty, the best year…

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God & The Bizarre

So early hours of the morning… as it usually happens… inspiration hit. I have to write ANOTHER book, while I am still busy with one (The Best Friend). I even woke up with the Book Title: “God & The Bizzare“. Yes, odd title… but VERY fitting. It’s been told to…

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My Phone Call From God

Wow. Let me start by saying that God hears EVERY word… EVEN when you don’t say anything at all… For the last several days, adding to the months prior, I have been bombarded with thoughts… confusion… questions… wondering… hoping… insights… and more. My mind has been flooded with TOO much……

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Picking Up The Pieces

Admittedly, I am still very numb from the incredible knock and shattered hope I received just two days ago. I am both at war with pain and peace… broken dreams and hope… and things I don’t have words for. But now, now I have to force myself to get up,…

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Shattered In The Moonlight

I don’t even know where to begin, except to say that I am utterly broken… and confused… so confused. I can’t hide behind a wall right now… I can’t distance myself from the emotions… this is very real. I am shattered beyond belief. For several months now, I had hung…

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Voices In Hiding

I am utterly speechless… no words! Goosebumps! Floored! Wow! Over the last number of weeks, being flooded with people reaching out to me because of my book Leviathan Walks AND The Best Friend, I had never expected this to happen… I have been receiving message after message from those who…

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Brokenness

Last night I was broken beyond belief… beyond words… beyond any actions that could be done to fix it… helpless… lost… Last night I watched one of the strongest people I have ever known become completely and utterly broken. What I walked into, I don’t think anything could have ever…

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