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Why I Choose To Speak Up

“Silence gives consent,” could not be a more accurate phrase when it comes Cecilia Steyn. Throughout countless scenarios, each of us, who were in her group, remained silent because we were still trying to wrap our reality around her bizarre reality. We could not dismiss the foolproof dramatic and extensive…

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Calling My Bluff? … The Hierarchy Of The Triquetra

So… someone, linked within these murderous groups, decided to “call my bluff” after my last post… piling on with intimidation and everything that they could to break me into being quiet. I KEEP MY WORD: This is The Hierarchy of the Triquetra in South Africa… (Click on the image to…

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A WARNING To The “Elite” & Their “Minions”

This is a VERY CLEAR WARNING to the “Elite” and their “minions” in this on going murder saga: YOUR SECRET HAS BEEN EXPOSED! And it was NOT through one of those who you have intimidated; it was through one of your own! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! Your continuous intimidation, harassment and…

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Exposing the CORE of Electus Per Deus

The FULL RAW truth, of what has happened and what is still happening, runs FAR DEEPER than all the realms of Dante’s Inferno… just as Cecilia said it would. Exposing the CORE, is only the CRACK of the TIP of the iceberg… Electus Per Deus (EPD) translated from Latin, means,…

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Some Scars Don’t Heal

As much as I would like to say, “I’m over it,” I know that I can’t. In this moment, right now, memories randomly started surfacing… and, yet again, I realize that I am still far from over it. After all this time, after years of counselling sessions, after talking repeatedly…

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Is The Volcano About To Explode?

I officially have to voice the “weirdness” of this… since doing podcasts and since Devilsdorp aired July 2021, I had gotten used to seeing a certain number of viewers/listeners daily and from certain countries too. It was too predictable… every day. BUT then… from around 8pm 31 Dec 2021… jaw…

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I Am Not A Hero. I Am Willing…

Since being involved in the Krugersdorp Killer’s case, I have received countless overwhelming responses from so many people across the globe. I have honestly lost count of how many messages I have received. Person after person sent incredibly supportive messages. They were overwhelming but these messages have helped spur me…

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“Is The World Ready?”

Over the last who knows how many days right now, I have scanned through the seemingly endless topics that I need to write about regarding the Krugersdorp Killers, or more specifically, Cecilia Steyn…. from the beginning all the way up until recent publicized events. I desperately wish I could just…

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Let’s Be Vulnerable… From My Heart To Yours…

For seemingly endless months, if not years, this question has hounded my mind, “What is the purpose for my life?” … Basically, “Why on earth did I go through so much in my life? Why? What did I do wrong to deserve all of this… I was just a child……

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This Is FAR HARDER Than I Let People Realize

Record. Pause. Heart Racing. Tears welling up. Lump in my throat. Record. Pause. Sobbing my eyes out. Delete… Try again… Talking about all of these things regarding Cecilia Steyn is far harder for me than I let people realize. I could not put it into typed out words, but I…

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The Krugersdorp Killers. Reality Check

This story about the Krugersdorp Killers seems to be a never ending part of my life. I was part of this story for 4 years. Escaped and helped investigators for the next 9 or so years… over an entire decade, seemingly “dedicated” to things revolving around Cecilia Steyn. When the…

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Voices In Hiding

I am utterly speechless… no words! Goosebumps! Floored! Wow! Over the last number of weeks, being flooded with people reaching out to me because of my book Leviathan Walks AND The Best Friend, I had never expected this to happen… I have been receiving message after message from those who…

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Pandora’s Box

I know I had recently said that it feels like I have opened Pandora’s Box when I started the audio recordings for The Best Friend… but I am starting to realize, only now, how true this is. Everything is connected. Dot to dot, the mindmap leads to so much more…

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Nightmares

“To sleep or not to sleep”… that is my question lately, and more so as each day passes. I am UTTERLY exhausted! But each time I close my eyes, I don’t drift off into dreamland… I get rudely sucked into a vortex of intensely graphic nightmares… all night long. Waking…

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Battling

To be honest… I am battling. Horribly. Terribly… and yet I know it’s still going to get much harder too. In these last few days, I find myself grasping for strength to carry on with The Best Friend. Since I had started this book, wounds feel like they are being…

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Unspoken Secrets Of The Past

I must admit that I did not expect to be where I am right now. I did not expect to come face-to-face, head on, with the memories and turmoil from my past regarding Cecilia Steyn and the rest of the Krugersdorp Killers. I never expected that I would eventually talk…

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What Happened?

What happened to common decency? What happened to being truthful? What happened to dignity and respect? What happened to “do unto others as you would have them done unto you”? Is it all just fictional or fantasy stories that we talk about but none of it really seems to exist…

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Arrived!

Right now, I’m feeling the same overwhelming emotions that all my Authors talk about when they hold their books for the first time! It’s, simply, overwhelming… This is the first time I have decided to print Leviathan Walks and Fragmented Shadows. I never considered it before but because of too…

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The Best Friend. Let’s Start…

I can most definitely say that I wasn’t planning to start this book, The Best Friend, any time soon. It required too much “of me” mentally and emotionally to dive in… and each time I thought about how much I had to cover for this book… well, I avoided it.…

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Leviathan Walks. The Release

It’s now just past 1am and I am glad to finally say that Leviathan Walks is ready for its re-release! In editing the last 10 or so chapters, I must admit, I found myself constantly repeating to myself, “Wow, what a messed up life I’ve lived!!!” … “How on earth…

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The Krugersdorp Killers. A Dent In My Life

When I think about this part of my life, too many thoughts come rushing back all at once; so many thoughts that I honestly don’t even know where to begin when it comes to talking about it. I am yet to start writing my new book, The Best Friend… Why?…

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Thoughts On Leviathan Walks

As the months of 2020 passed me by, I had spent hours on end during lockdown revisiting the past I had once lived, all in order to to edit and add more extensive details to my book Leviathan Walks, for its re-release. I cannot begin to count how many times…

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