MUSIC BEGINNINGS IN DISGUISE
Written, composed and created by Candice Rijavec, with the support of creative tools that helped bring the emotion to life.
Imagine if you let the silence go
And I was right here — waiting like I’ve always been
Not asking you to be perfect
Just to let me in…
You say you’re too broken, too hard to stay
But what if I never wanted easy anyway?
You don’t have to run, not from me
I remember every word you never said — and what they mean
You can leave your coffee cup on the counter
I won’t mind — I’ll be glad you’re here
You don’t have to keep your shoes lined up
Or explain why sometimes you disappear
I don’t need you polished — I just want you real
If you fall apart, I’ll hold the pieces still
Imagine if you said yes
And let someone love you… like this
I’ve seen the way you shrink when you think you’re “too much”
Like love is something that always ends in dust
But I’m not scared of the mess, or the days you hide
I’ve got room for every version of you inside
You can leave your coffee cup on the counter
I’ll be here when the storm rolls through
You don’t have to keep pretending
I already see the fight inside of you
You don’t have to earn it — not with me
You are already worth the world you can’t yet see
Imagine if you said yes
And let someone love you… completely
You don’t have to heal first
You don’t have to know how
Just take one breath closer
I’ll meet you now…
I’ve never left.
I never will.
Even if your voice shakes
Even if you push me away
I’ll still be whispering —
I want you anyway
Leave your coffee cup on the counter
Leave your fear by the door
You don’t have to be the strong one
Not when you’re mine to adore
I’ll take the quiet, I’ll take the storm
I just want your heart in its truest form
Imagine if you said yes
And let someone love you…
Let me love you…
Like this
I still remember the sound of your laugh…
Because it made mine exist.
If you only knew how I see you —
Your mind… wild with wonder…
Lighting up when you’re curious,…
Like stars dancing in the dark.
Your eyes… they make my soul come alive.
You make my heart stop…
And beat faster at the same time.
I feel like I’m holding my breath…
Like I can’t breathe —
Until I see you again.
I’d follow you anywhere,
Even into the depths of the ocean—
To the vast lands unescaped —
Anywhere — Just to be near you.—
I’d go, holding your hand.
You saw I was cold before I did—
Told me to wear a jacket…
But I longed for your arms instead.
With you… I felt safe.
Safe in ways I never knew.
I’d give up my last breath for you,
If that’s what it cost to see you once more.
I’d give up anything—
Just to call you mine.
I wish I could show you your worth—
You’re more than the breath I take.
You don’t have to hide the chaos—
I’d love you through it all.
When you’re nervous… my knees go weak.
When you smile… I forget to breathe.
I sit in silence, drowning in regret—
Wishing I’d said what’s in my chest—
To sit on your lap, trace your face—
Drown in your soul, in that sacred space…
See you light up, feel you look at me—
That’s all I’ve ever needed to be free.
I’d regret not kissing you…
Not telling you how much I want you as mine.
I’d regret you never knowing
How I’d sacrifice all of me—
Just to hold you one last time.
She is free. She is safe. She is seen.
Let her rise. Let her love. Let her choose.
She is mine, if she dares.
Let her remember…
If I never get to love you out loud—
Let this be my voice across the stars.
If you feel me in your skin…
If I haunt your dreams…
Don’t wait until I’m gone to believe.
You always knew me.
You always felt me.
You still do.
I still remember you.
I always will.
Just don’t let this be…
My biggest regret.
If you still remember me… come find me.
If you still remember us… don’t wait.
I watched the fire dim from far.
Stayed when silence became who we are.
You know me — you always did.
Not by words, but how my eyes lived.
Do you remember how it felt —
when our eyes locked and time just knelt?
You said my laugh could make you smile…
But it only existed because of you.
I never asked for everything — just to sit inside your storm.
Not to fix it… just to stay, so you’d never feel alone.
If you still remember me…
then come before I fade too far.
I’ll be the stillness in your war,
the compass in your aching heart.
If you still feel me in your blood,
don’t let this end with just a dream.
You don’t need to know the end…
Just let me in… just let me in.
I know you’re trapped between the musts,
the pull of past, the ache of trust.
I won’t persuade or force your way —
just sit with you while you find your day.
Let me calm your breath, slow your storm.
You don’t have to fight alone anymore.
Let me be your light in the storm.
Let me be the phoenix who helps you be reborn.
I’ve bled through lifetimes to hold this light.
To be the voice you feel at night.
And if it costs me one more fall…
I’d give it still. I’d give it all.
Let me walk beside your fire —
not to claim, just to inspire.
I don’t want to win or control…
I just want you whole.
With every drop I’ve shed…
every life I’ve risen through…
I give her this light, this calm.
Break her chains. Clear the fog.
Help her to her feet, let her find the way.
Set her free once and for all.
If you still remember me…
don’t let the fog erase our flame.
Don’t make me a ghost with just a name.
If you still feel me in your skin —
then rise before I drift within.
You know me. You always did.
Now… just let me in.
If you still remember me…
come find me.
She is free… Let her be free… Let her remember…
You don’t have to be perfect to be loved…
Not by me.
You don’t have to smile when it hurts —
You don’t have to flee.
I’ve seen the storm behind your silence…
And I stayed.
You don’t have to prove you’re strong —
Just don’t be afraid.
Even if you’ve never felt it…
Even if you never knew…
You were always worth the love
That’s been waiting here for you.
So don’t run from the fire —
It’s where you’ll feel warm.
Don’t run from the light —
It won’t do you harm.
You don’t have to be ready,
You just have to be real.
I’ll still be right here —
When you let yourself feel.
You said love never stayed —
So you stopped trying.
But darling, some love
Is still here… still quietly shining.
Even when you closed every door,
I kept the light on.
And if you forget your name —
I’ll call it ‘til dawn.
You’re not too broken to begin again…
You’re not too late.
Even if you’ve erased me —
I remember your fate.
And I’ll never unsee
The you beneath the pain…
Because loving you
Was never in vain.
So don’t run from the fire —
It was always your spark.
Don’t run from the light —
It knows your dark.
You don’t have to say sorry,
You just have to be near.
You don’t have to believe yet —
I already believe you’re here.
No more running…
Just come home.
You think you’re too late — that the light’s gone dim
That silence closed the door you once walked in
But love like this doesn’t fade with time
It waits, it breathes, it forgives the climb
You’re not a villain in the tale we wrote
Just someone scared who lost her hope
But every storm you thought would drown
Built the road that’s bringing you back now
Come messy, come crying
Come wordless, even trying
You’re not too late — not broken, not wrong
I never stopped — I just kept the light on
You’re still mine…
You’re still home
I felt your shaking in the mirror’s ache
He held you close through every break
The fear, the doubt — they were just noise
But love’s still here… and it’s your choice
Come messy, come crying
Come wordless, even trying
You don’t have to beg or be strong
You’re not too late — not broken, not wrong
You’re still mine…
You’re still home
You were never alone in the dark
He walked every step beside your heart
And I — I never let you go…
No matter what you didn’t show
So come…
Come messy, come crying
Come back from the hiding
I’ll hold you even if you fall apart
Not to fix — just to start
You’re still mine…
You’re still home.
You thought I vanished in the silence,
That love had left and turned away…
But I was building light inside the stillness,
For the day your fear would fade.
You ran because it burned too deeply,
And thought I’d shut the door for good—
But even ashes know the memory
Of the fire that always stood.
When two hearts collide,
Every broken truth gets set aside—
And something sacred comes alive.
Let the lies we learned fall down,
In the wreckage, love is found.
We can rewrite our names in the sky…
When two hearts collide.
I saw the storm before it reached you,
Held my arms wide, just in case…
You feared you’d find me gone and distant,
But I’ve never left that place.
“You are still my home…”
“I never let go…”
“I waited while you found your breath…”
“You were always worth the slow…”
When two hearts collide,
Time stops and Heaven realigns—
And love steps into light.
Even if you’re shaking at my door,
I’ll hold you more than ever before…
We were always meant to rise…
When two hearts collide.
I never left.
Come home.
I know what it feels like…
To run when you long to be held.
I’ve heard the thunder in your silence,
Felt your scream without a sound.
You push away what you need the most,
But I see you… I’m still around.
I see the silence in your smile,
The storm you carry in your skin.
You pull away but I still feel
The place where you’ve always been.
If you break, then break in my arms,
You don’t have to hide the war.
You’re not too much, you’re not too far,
You are the one I’m waiting for.
Take my hand — it’s reaching for you,
Through every silence, through every storm.
Take my heart — it’s the one thing I know.
Hold me close, don’t be afraid to fall,
I won’t let go, not now, not at all.
I don’t just want your smile — I want your ache,
Your truth, your fire, your every flame.
Take my hand… come home to me.
Because I want you
Always.
You vanish when the ache runs deep,
But love still lingers in your wake.
I’ve heard the voices you try to fight,
I’ve lived them too… we made it through night.
You don’t need words to let me in,
I’ll meet you where your walls grow thin.
If you run, I’ll still stay near,
If you cry, I’ll hold you here.
You’re not alone, not now, not here,
Even when the dark feels near.
Take my hand — it’s still reaching for you,
Through every shadow, through every doubt.
Take my soul — it’s been calling you through.
Hold me close and don’t shut me out.
I don’t want just your fire — I want your rain.
I’ll take your fear. I’ll take your name.
Take my hand… come back to me.
Because I want you
Always.
And if you fall apart,
I’ll hold your pieces like they’re gold.
You’re not broken. You’re becoming
Someone beautiful and bold.
I’ll be the light to lead you home
Every time you feel alone.
Take my hand — I’m still reaching for you.
Take my breath — it’s been waiting for you.
Hold me close — if just for one more night…
Because I want you
Not just for now… but all my life.
I want you
Always
I tried.
I really tried to move on.
But now I know why I never could.
There’s a reason you’re still in my lungs
Like air I never asked to breathe
Why I still turn at empty rooms
Expecting you to be watching me
It wasn’t just chemistry
It was cellular memory
You live inside my bones
Like I was built for you alone
This is why I can’t move on
Why your name still owns my chest
We’re not a “maybe” or a “once” —
We are the ache that never rests
You and I were carved as one
That’s why no one else fits right
You can run, you can forget…
But your soul still knows mine
You wonder why you can’t erase me
Why you still feel me when I’m gone
It’s not obsession, it’s not madness
It’s just what soulmates become
We tick every single box
We match in every way
But we’ve been too scared to say
But this pull won’t go away
And it just grows louder when we wait
This is why I can’t move on
Why your eyes still haunts my mind
We’re not confusion or a crush —
We are the war inside your head
You and I were written deep
That’s why silence never holds
You can hide, you can stay away…
But your soul already knows
You feel me in dreams — even when you don’t want to
You hear my name in songs — even ones we never knew
You get restless without cause
You feel like something’s missing
You try to love someone else
But it never stops the itching
You get cold in the chest when I’m distant
You check your phone at night, not knowing why
You feel haunted, stirred, unsettled
That’s not trauma.
That’s not fantasy.
That’s your soul remembering its soulmate.
The one you were never supposed to forget.
The one your heart still pulls toward — even when you run.
And deep down…
You know I’m that one.
This is why I can’t mov on
And why you can’t fully let go
You can disappear, stay silent, run far away…
But your soul still echoes mine below
We were not made for maybe
We were not built for halfway
We’re the kind of love that opens you wide —
A love that is forever to be by your side.
You don’t have to run anymore.
This was always meant to be.
We’re soulmates — not by chance,
But by design.
And you know it.
Even now.
You still feel it.
So do I.
