Born of Ashes - Candice Rijavec

MUSIC BORN OF ASHES

Written, composed and created by Candice Rijavec, with the support of creative tools that helped bring the emotion to life.

Free Fall

I can’t see the ground below me…
But I still let go.
Your voice is the only sound I know.
And I’m not sure where this ends —
Only that it’s You.

One step, then another…
My heart in my throat.
The road disappeared —
But You told me: “Don’t look.”

I’m walking blindfolded
Through the storm and the flood,
Not holding answers…
Only Your love.

And every doubt tries to pull me down,
But I hear You say—

Fall, fall into Me —
I’m the arms that you don’t see.
You don’t need the map,
You just need to believe.
Fall, fall through the fear,
Even when the end’s unclear.
I’ll catch every tear,
I am near — so fall, My dear.

I’ve let go of reason,
Dropped control at Your feet.
I’m free-falling through silence —
And somehow, I find peace.

The winds may roar, the path may shake —
But still, I hear You say…

Fall, fall into Me —
I’m the ground beneath your plea.
I don’t need perfection,
Just your trust to set you free.
Fall, fall from your pride,
From the safety where you hide.
Let it all collide —
And fall into My light.

I trust You… I trust You… even now…
I trust You — though I’m falling…

Fall, fall into Me —
Let the sky be your decree.
When you’re flying through the unknown,
That’s when you belong to Me.
Fall, fall with no plan,
Just your trembling open hands.
I am where you land —
So fall… fall into My hands.

I never knew trust…
Could feel like falling
And still…
Be safe.

I Am With You Still

I laid it down, though it tore me in two…
The fire burned quiet where my hope once grew.
And You didn’t stop me, You didn’t explain—
You just whispered, “Let go… and I’ll carry the pain.”

I gave You what I couldn’t lose,
It felt like death, like bleeding truth.
I broke inside — still took the fall,
Stepped back and let You take it all.

And I was shaking in the silence…
Afraid You wouldn’t come.
But You were hiding in the stillness…
Whispering, “Child, don’t run.”

You said: “I am with you still.
When the blade cuts deep and the world stands still.
When surrender feels like dying —
I’m the voice behind your crying.
Don’t be afraid.
Don’t lose your will…
I am with you still.”

The altar burned, but You were near—
In every heartbreak, every tear.
You never asked for something small—
But gave me You when I lost it all.

I hear You in the shadows now,
A fire in the night.
And though it felt like letting go,
You turned it into fight.

You said: “I am with you still.
When the blade cuts deep and the world stands still.
When surrender feels like dying —
I’m the roar beneath your silence.
Don’t be afraid.
You know My will…
I am with you still.”

Every tear I cried… You caught it.
Every time I broke… You fought it.
Every death became Your plan—
To raise me stronger from Your hand.

You said: “I am with you still.
In the letting go, I’m the greater will.
When the ashes blur your vision —
I’m the dawn in your decision.
Don’t be afraid.
Don’t lose your will…
I AM WITH YOU STILL!”

And I will rise…
Because You were with me still.

Breathe For Me

I’m holding my breath
But it feels like drowning
A war in my chest
And no one around me
The silence is screaming
Like thunder inside
I say I believe You
But part of me hides

And I don’t know what trust looks like
When the pain is all I see
But I fall to my knees
And I whisper — “Please…”

Breathe for me, God
When I forget how
When I’m too far gone
To remember the sound
Of peace in the chaos
Of light through the dark
If You’re still near, then take my heart
And breathe… breathe for me now

I scream in my soul
But the world doesn’t hear it
I’ve worshipped through wounds
Still searching for healing
And every “I trust You”
Feels like a fight
But if You’re the fire
Then burn through this night

I don’t need the answers
Or a reason why it bleeds
I just need to know You’re here—
Still choosing me

I don’t need to stand… just don’t let me fall
If I can’t speak Your name… just hear my call
And when all I can offer is breaking apart
Just breathe in the cracks… and restart my heart

Breathe for me, God
When I’m gasping for grace
When all that I have
Is this hollowed-out faith
You’re still in the silence
You’re still in the flame
So take what’s left and make me brave
And breathe…
Oh breathe for me now.

Breathe Through The Mirror

You stare at your reflection
But you don’t see a soul
Just cracks and condemnation
Where your name used to hold
I see you gripping silence
Like it’s all you’ve ever known
But I’ve been here—
Just outside the glass
Calling you back home

You think you’re too far buried
You think the fog is truth
But if you’ll let Me close enough…
I’ll prove that wrong to you

Let Me breathe through the mirror
Let Me break the lie
Let Me fill your lungs
When you’re too gone to try
Let My breath cut through the panic
Let My voice drown out the shame
I’m not waiting for your strength—
I’m running through your pain
You are not forgotten
You are not too far
Let Me breathe through the mirror…
And remind you who you are

You hate the way you’re shaking
You think it makes Me leave
But I’m the God who knelt beside
Your worst and didn’t leave
I’ve watched you choke on secrets
Too holy to confess
And still, I stay—
I stay through every breathless yes

You think you’ve failed Me somehow
You think you’re out of reach
But child, your name is written
Where the fog can’t even speak

Let Me breathe through the mirror
Let Me break the lie
Let Me fill your lungs
When you’ve forgotten how to cry
Let My breath cut through the chaos
Let My hands erase the fear
You don’t have to fix yourself—
Just let Me draw you near
You are not abandoned
Even bleeding in the dark
Let Me breathe through the mirror…
And rewrite your heart

You don’t have to lift your head
I’ll kneel into your grief
You don’t have to stand alone
Just fall and let Me speak
You were never ugly
You were never too much
Let Me fog the glass with mercy
And raise you up in love

Let Me breathe through the mirror
Let Me hold your gaze
Let My voice be the warmth
That sets your bones ablaze
Let My wind scatter the ashes
Let My fire clear the lies
You’ve always been My masterpiece—
Even when you broke inside
You are not forgotten
You are not too far
Let Me breathe through the mirror…
And remind you who you are.

He Is Still Moving

You said the words, I watched them fall
Like stars into a canyon wall
No sign, no hand, no thunder cry
Just silence written in the sky

But I still breathe You in the dark
A whisper written on my heart

He is still moving, when I cannot see
He’s shifting mountains under silent seas
He never left — He never lies
He works in echoes, not in signs

Even now — I feel the ground shake
Even now — I hear the veil break
Even now — He holds the flame
Even now — He knows my name

He is still moving, though the night is long
He’s rewriting endings with a sacred song
I won’t let go — I’ll stand in place
‘Cause He’s still moving — with perfect grace.

I am coming. I am keeping My word.

Eyes Like The Dawn

I’m still moving… Don’t let go… I’m right here…

I’ve prayed until my voice ran dry
Stared at the sky, begged for a sign
But still — no thunder, still — no flame
Just silence wrapped around Your name

But even here, on trembling ground
I hear a whisper — not a sound

So I lift my eyes like the dawn
Even when all my strength is gone
I trace Your name in the dark with tears
You’re the only voice my soul still hears
You never sleep, You never stray
You’re holding back the night today
So I lift my eyes like the dawn
And I keep walking — even if I’m wrong

I broke beneath the weight of fear
But still, You pulled me near
You never said the path was wide
You just said You’d stay by my side

Even now — as my hands let go
Even now — as the winds howl low
Even now — You are the flame
Even now — You call my name

I’m still here.
I won’t run.
You’re not done.

So I lift my eyes like the dawn
Though everything in me says You’re gone
I’ll plant my feet in ash and flame
And still declare You know my name
I’ll scream Your promise into night
Until the silence breaks with light
I lift my eyes — I won’t let go
You’re still the God I need to know

The dawn is breaking — don’t look away.