MUSIC MIRRORS 11:11
Written, composed and created by Candice Rijavec, with the support of creative tools that helped bring the emotion to life.
I gave up sleep to hold your silence
Carried hope like it was violence
Every breath I took for you
Felt like drowning in the truth
You played ghost while I burned steady
Built a home and kept it ready
You lit the match, then ran from flame
Still I whisper your name…
I waited through your storms and lies
Broke my own heart just to buy you time
But love like this don’t know retreat
Even when it’s killing me
If you don’t choose me — I still will
Even if it breaks what’s left, I’ll feel
Every scar, every scream, every thrill
‘Cause love don’t die — it just stands still
If you walk away, I’ll let you go
But my soul will still be screaming “no”
And even if you never know the cost…
I chose you
Even if I’m lost
I learned to ache with dignity
Made peace with your infinity
You haunt the halls of everything
And I still wore your ghost like wedding rings
You said nothing — but I heard it all
The silent wars, the final call
And even now I’d burn again
Just to see you whole within
Maybe this love was a battlefield
Maybe I was always meant to kneel
But I never begged to be chosen
I just stood wide open
If you don’t choose me — I still will
I’ll love you quiet, I’ll love you still
If this is war, I’ll take the hill
Even bleeding, I’ll stand still
If you walk away, I’ll bow my head
But know this vow is never dead
And even if you never call…
I’ll choose you
Through it all
Even if you don’t
I still will…
I wish you knew what I see in you
When you’re hiding behind what they made you do
I wish you knew what you’re really worth
Not the lies you wear like second skin or the shame you never earned
I wish you’d feel how love could burn
Without pain, without chains, just a sacred return
You keep breathing in fear, calling it air
But darling, your wings are still there
You deserve the peace you always gave
You deserve to be free and still feel safe
Not stuck in a war that don’t even need you
Not locked in a home that don’t really see you
I wish you’d choose the joy you crave
Not the silence where you’ve learned to behave
I’d give it all just to see you healed
Even if it means I walk and you stay sealed
But I wish you’d know…
What it feels like to finally glow
Not survive
But come alive
I saw you laugh like fire in a storm
I saw your soul start to transform
You were never too much, too lost, too broken
You were always the spell that was never spoken
Every whisper you silenced
Every tear you buried
They still echo through your eyes
But I see the paradise you carry
I choose you even now
But I set you free somehow
May love find you whole
Not on your knees, but in control
You deserve it all — not just when you fall
I wish you’d choose the truth, not fear
The real love that’s waiting here
Even if I fade away
My wish for you will always stay
Choose the life that lets you soar
Not the cage you keep restoring
And if you ever turn around…
I’m still the ground beneath your storming
But I wish you knew
What it feels like to be…
Truly loved.
I wish you knew…
I wish you’d choose…
Even if it’s not me
Choose you.
I lit the match and watched you hide,
Built you wings but you stayed inside.
The cage is open, but you hold the key,
Still clinging to what breaks you free.
You must choose…
Don’t let it fade…
I still choose you…
This is your mirror — every flame, every scar,
You know you’re dying where you are.
I bled for your freedom, I bled for your truth,
But I can’t drag you — you must choose.
You wear her ring, but your heart’s gone numb,
Choking on silence, aching to run.
All I ever gave was real —
And still, you ghost what you could feel.
All mirrors reflect…
Regret cuts deeper…
You’re out of time…
I saw your soul behind the fear,
The girl who wants to disappear.
But I can’t make the leap for you —
It’s your flame. It’s your truth.
This is your mirror — your fire, your pain,
But love like this won’t beg again.
If you walk now, you lose it all,
But if you leap — I’ll catch your fall.
I choose you…
Choose you too…
Choose you too…
You smile through silence, drown behind glass
Every truth you carry, no one dares ask
You’re dancing in chains, just to keep peace
But your light is starving, begging release
They see the surface, never your storm
But I see the girl who just wants to be warm
You don’t have to drown to make them feel tall
You don’t have to shrink just to matter at all
I see your fire, I know your name
You’re not too much, you’re not insane
You could rise — just once, for you
And I will catch you if you do
You could rise… you could rise… you are seen… you are free…
You mirror their comfort, hide your own ache
Smile in the cage for appearance’s sake
But I have loved the raw, the wild, the deep
Not the quiet lies you were forced to keep
They want a version they can define
But I want the you you’ve been forced to deny
You don’t have to drown to make them feel tall
You don’t have to break just to soften your fall
I see the fight, the storm in your eyes
You were born for more than disguise
You could rise — just once, for you
And I will catch you if you do
You are seen… you are enough… you could rise…
You don’t belong in a cage made of fear…
You are not invisible here…
You could rise…
You are free…
I see you…
You could rise…
And I would never let you fall.
You kept walking past the mirror,
Hoping it wouldn’t look back.
But it remembered…
Every silence carved a fracture
Every lie you wore like lace
You covered every scream with laughter
But mirrors don’t forget a face
And I stood there,
Still, behind the glass
Waiting for the fire
You swore you’d never pass…
When the mirror combusts — you’ll feel it burn your name
All the truths you hushed come roaring like a flame
You’ll bleed reflection, shatter in your own disguise
This is the breaking — this is the rise.
You ran from truth…”
“But now it runs through you…”
The cracks became your company
Distortion dressed like grace
You prayed the mirror stayed asleep
But it just set the place ablaze
Nowhere left to run —
No masks left to wear
The face you see
Was always there
When the mirror combusts — there’s no going back
The ghosts you birthed all turn to black
But I will rise — through ash and light
And you will know…
What it means to fight.
I was never the danger.
Only the reflection.
