MUSIC OUT LOUD
Sirennix exists between worlds: part myth, part fire, part heartbeat. No genre. No boundaries. Just a force that keeps resurfacing… louder each time. Born from ashes. Powered by echo.
Written, composed and created by Candice Rijavec, with the support of creative tools that helped bring the emotion to life.
Mmm… yeah…
Not okay… but okay enough to start…
I’ve been running from my shadow like it’s glued to my shoes,
Every sunrise feels like pressure, every night I just lose.
Got a smile I wear in public, but it cracks on the climb,
Telling everyone I’m fine while I’m dying inside.
I don’t wanna fall apart again,
But I’m shaking like a fault line under skin.
Every heartbeat feels like static,
But I’m still here… somehow, still standing.
I’m not okay… but I still show up,
Tired eyes, heavy heart, but I won’t give up.
Yeah, the world hits hard, and it hurts too much,
But I still show up, yeah, I still show up.
I’m not okay… but I still hold on,
Broken pieces in my hands, but I’m walking strong.
If the night gets loud and the fear turns up
I still show up, yeah, I still show up.
Every story in my head keeps replaying on loop,
Telling lies like “you’re not worth it,” but I know that ain’t true.
I’ve been learning how to breathe when the panic kicks in,
Turning breakdowns into beats, making peace with my skin.
And I feel my heartbeat fighting back,
Yeah, I’m done with letting fear attack.
I’m a storm, but I’m not collapsing,
I’m still here… even when I’m cracking.
I’m not okay… but I still show up,
Tired eyes, heavy heart, but I won’t give up.
Yeah, the world hits hard, and it hurts too much,
But I still show up, yeah, I still show up.
I’m not okay… but I still hold on,
Broken pieces in my hands, but I’m walking strong.
If the night gets loud and the fear turns up
I still show up, yeah, I still show up.
Maybe healing isn’t pretty…
Maybe courage isn’t loud…
Maybe showing up shaking
is still something to be proud of…
And if I fall tonight, I’ll rise again,
Every scar I have is just a friend…
Telling me I survived the end…
Oh-oh-ohh, I still show up…
Oh-oh-ohh, I still show up…
Oh-oh-ohh, I still show up…
I’m not okay… but I still show up,
Breathing deep through the storms that almost broke us.
If the world goes dark and the fear erupts
I still show up, yeah, I still show up.
I’m not okay… but I still hold on,
Every day that I survive means I’m moving on.
If the pain comes back and it feels too much
I still show up… I still show up.
I’m not okay…
But I’m still here…
Still fighting fear…
Still showing up.
Funny how you only hear me… when I’m breaking…
I’ve been screaming into pillows,
’Cause in real life no one hears.
Acting fine around the people
Who don’t notice when I disappear.
I’ve been fighting inner battles
No one sees beneath my skin.
Funny how they only listen
When I’m close to breaking again.
I hold my breath until I shake,
Try not to bend until I break.
But every time I hesitate,
That’s when they hear me… loud and late.
I get louder when I break,
Every crack I make, the whole world shakes.
If silence is a choice I never take,
Guess I’m louder… louder when I break.
Yeah I get louder when I fall,
You only hear me when I lose it all.
If quiet is a language you don’t recall,
Then I’ll get louder… louder when I fall.
I’ve been patching up the pieces
Just to crash again tonight.
Trying not to give you reasons
To pretend you care outright.
But you only ever notice
When my smile begins to shake.
You don’t hear me when I’m coping
Only when I finally break.
I hold my breath until I shake,
Try not to bend until I break.
But every time I hesitate,
That’s when you hear me… loud and late.
I get louder when I break,
Every crack I make, the whole world shakes.
If silence is a choice I never take,
Guess I’m louder… louder when I break.
Yeah I get louder when I fall,
You only hear me when I lose it all.
If quiet is a language you don’t recall,
Then I’ll get louder… louder when I fall.
Maybe I was too quiet then…
Maybe I should’ve screamed again…
Maybe breaking is the only time
You hear my voice and call it mine…
If the only time you care is when I’m shaking
Then hear me now…
I’m already breaking.
I get louder when I break,
Every crack I make, the whole world shakes.
If silence is a choice I never take,
Guess I’m louder… louder when I break.
Yeah I get louder when I fall,
You only hear me when I lose it all.
If quiet is a language you don’t recall,
Then I’ll get louder… louder when I fall.
Louder when I break…
But this time…
I’m breaking free.