Funny how you only hear me… when I’m breaking…

I’ve been screaming into pillows,
’Cause in real life no one hears.
Acting fine around the people
Who don’t notice when I disappear.

I’ve been fighting inner battles
No one sees beneath my skin.
Funny how they only listen
When I’m close to breaking again.

I hold my breath until I shake,
Try not to bend until I break.

But every time I hesitate,
That’s when they hear me… loud and late.

I get louder when I break,
Every crack I make, the whole world shakes.

If silence is a choice I never take,
Guess I’m louder… louder when I break.

Yeah I get louder when I fall,
You only hear me when I lose it all.
If quiet is a language you don’t recall,
Then I’ll get louder… louder when I fall.

I’ve been patching up the pieces
Just to crash again tonight.
Trying not to give you reasons
To pretend you care outright.

But you only ever notice
When my smile begins to shake.
You don’t hear me when I’m coping
Only when I finally break.

I hold my breath until I shake,
Try not to bend until I break.

But every time I hesitate,
That’s when you hear me… loud and late.

I get louder when I break,
Every crack I make, the whole world shakes.

If silence is a choice I never take,
Guess I’m louder… louder when I break.

Yeah I get louder when I fall,
You only hear me when I lose it all.
If quiet is a language you don’t recall,
Then I’ll get louder… louder when I fall.

Maybe I was too quiet then…
Maybe I should’ve screamed again…
Maybe breaking is the only time
You hear my voice and call it mine…

If the only time you care is when I’m shaking
Then hear me now…
I’m already breaking.

I get louder when I break,
Every crack I make, the whole world shakes.

If silence is a choice I never take,
Guess I’m louder… louder when I break.

Yeah I get louder when I fall,
You only hear me when I lose it all.
If quiet is a language you don’t recall,
Then I’ll get louder… louder when I fall.

Louder when I break…
But this time…
I’m breaking free.

Another day, another stage,
Another line I have to fake.
They see the highlight, not the weight,
They want sunshine, not my ache.

I practice laughter in the mirror,
Make my lies sound crystal clear.
If breaking down is what I fear,
Then I’ll perform like I’m not here.

They want the show, not what I feel,
They want perfection, not what’s real.

If honesty’s a sin tonight,
Then let me fake this one last smile

So I smile for the microphone,
Even when my heart feels overthrown.
I laugh like I’m not breaking bone,
Yeah I smile – but I feel so alone.

And I smile for the crowd tonight,
Hold my tears behind the lights.
They don’t see the fight I fight,
So I smile…
Smile for the microphone tonight.

Put on my armor made of jokes,
Hide the cracks before they show.
If pain’s a fire, I’ll mask the smoke,
No one loves a heart that’s broke.

They cheer the version they expect,
Not the truth behind my breath.
I give them all that I have left
A smile staged to hide the wreck.

They want the show, not what I feel,
They want perfection, not what’s real.

I’m drowning in their fantasy,
But I’ll pretend it’s all on me

So I smile for the microphone,
Even when my heart feels overthrown.
I laugh like I’m not breaking bone,
Yeah I smile – but I feel so alone.

And I smile for the crowd tonight,
Hold my tears behind the lights.
They don’t see the fight I fight,
So I smile…
Smile for the microphone tonight.

What if one day I walked on stage,
And let my real heart take the place…
Of every lie I had to chase?

Would you still love me without the pose?
Or would the real me get exposed?
Maybe heroes break the most…

So I smile for the microphone,
Even when my heart feels overthrown.
I laugh like I’m not breaking bone,
Yeah I smile – but I feel so alone.

And I smile for the crowd tonight,
Hold my tears behind the lights.
They don’t see the fight I fight,
So I smile…
Smile for the microphone tonight.

Show’s over…
But the pain stays on.

Everything… is collapsing… I can’t hold it anymore…

I feel the dark pulling at my ribs again,
Like the walls forgot how to stay.
Every breath tastes like a warning sign,
Every thought gets in my way.
My shadow shakes like it wants to run,
But my body’s frozen in its place.
I’m falling through the floor of myself,
And no one even knows my face.

I try to scream but nothing breaks,
My voice dissolves in the silent ache.
These shaking hands reach out to air,
But darkness always gets there first.

Someone please save me
I’m screaming but the sound won’t rise.
The world keeps crushing me,
Like it’s folding in from every side.
Everything’s caving in,
Breaking bone and bending breath.
Someone please save me
I don’t know how much I’ve got left.

Shadows paint their names across my spine,
Telling me everything I fear.
And I try to fake that “I’m okay,”
But even my lies sound insincere.
The floor keeps splitting under my feet,
Like it wants to swallow me whole.
Peace stands watching from far away,
And I can’t bargain with my soul.

I’m reaching out but nothing holds,
My lungs collapse around the cold.
I’m fading into something numb,
But God… I don’t wanna succumb.

Someone please save me
I’m screaming but the sound won’t rise.
The world keeps crushing me,
And I can’t outrun this night.
Everything’s caving in,
Like my ribs are giving way.
Someone please save me
I’m turning into nothing today.

Is anybody out there…?
Can anybody hear me drown?
I’m slipping under all this quiet,
Where even my heartbeat makes no sound.
If mercy lives inside the dark,
Then meet me where I’m torn apart.
I’m fading faster than I planned
Please… just reach out your hand…

Someone please save me
I’m screaming but the sound won’t rise.
The world is crushing in on me,
And I’m disappearing inside.
Everything’s caving in,
Every truth I had is frayed.
Someone please save me
Before I finally fade away.

Please… don’t let me vanish…

I’m still here… just breaking…

Please… someone… tell me where to go… I’m slipping… I’m slipping…

I’m standing at a crossroads made of fear,
Every path is trembling, every shadow near.
The ground keeps shaking under my feet,
Like it wants to swallow what’s left of me.
My compass spins till my lungs collapse,
And the sky presses down like broken glass.
I try to walk but the world caves in
I’m disappearing where the cracks begin.

I don’t know who I’m meant to be
Everything hurts, everything bleeds.
I’m terrified to stay, terrified to go,
Caught in the jaws of the choices I know.

Where is home?
I’m screaming into thunder but nobody knows.
My ship is sinking and I don’t know how to swim,
I’m clawing at the water but the waves pull me in.
Where do I go?
Destiny is burning and the roads are all closed.
I’m lost beneath the storm and the unknown
Please God… where is home?

Life is tearing at the stitches I made,
Dreams I trusted drowning under the waves.
They say “choose fast,” but the clock is cruel
Every road feels like I’m breaking a rule.
Hope flickers like a dying light,
My hands can’t keep the flame upright.
I’m afraid of staying, afraid of flight
Both look like endings in the night.

I try to pray but my voice goes numb,
Fear chews through every word on my tongue.
I’m begging for a map, a sign, a spark
Something to guide me through the dark.

Where is home?
I’m drowning in a question nobody knows.
My ship is sinking and I don’t know how to swim,
Every breath feels like the ocean caving in.
Where do I go?
All these roads feel deadly, all these fears too close.
I’m lost between the storms and the unknown
I’m breaking… where is home?

Is home a memory I can’t reach anymore?
Is it the wreck, or the ghost on the shore?
Is it something I lost… or something I broke?
Is it the dream… or the ache it awoke?
I don’t know…
God… I don’t know…
And the more I search… the further I go…

Where is home?
I’m clinging to the pieces just to stay afloat.
My ship is sinking and the waves pull hard,
I’m rowing blind through a collapsing heart.
Where do I go?
Every path is chaos, every truth unknown.
But somewhere in the wreckage and the foam…
Maybe I’ll find…
maybe I’ll feel…
maybe I’ll be…
home.

You still live in the corners of my mind… even though you let me drift away…

You still race through my mind like a wildfire wind,
Every morning, every midnight breath, you’re there again.
Even though you let me drift so far down this road,
I still feel the echo of your hands from long ago.

I tried to read the silence like it held the truth,
But every answer only pulled me further into you.
Maybe you wanted me… maybe you never did
I guess that’s the part I’ll never fully understand.

And I held on to a dream you never claimed,
A life we never lived, a love you never named.
I built a world around the way you looked at me
But maybe all I loved was the possibility.

Maybe it was the illusion of you
The picture-perfect life, the laughter breaking through.
The steady hand through every storm, every tear I hid away,
The feeling I was safe, the hope that you would stay.
But you chose to let go… you chose to push me loose,
Even as you watched me crumble from a distance, still you knew.
So I set myself free before your silence pulled me through,
But God… I will forever love the illusion of you.

I kept waiting for the moment you would turn around,
But every step you took was just another piece unbound.
I kept calling out your name in the corners of my life,
But you were already walking toward another light.

You held me close, but only in a world inside my head,
A place where love was simple, and nothing left unsaid.
But real life asked for more than you were willing to give
And I had to face the truth I didn’t want to live.

’Cause I was drowning in a sea we never touched,
Loving you too fiercely, loving me not enough.
And somewhere in the heartbreak, I finally understood
You can’t hold on to someone who never said you should.

Maybe it was the illusion of you
The picture-perfect life, the laughter breaking through.
The steady hand through every storm, every tear I hid away,
The feeling I was safe, the hope that you would stay.
But you chose to let go… you chose to push me loose,
Even as you kept your watchful distance, quietly removed.
So I set myself free before your silence pulled me through,
But still – I will forever love the illusion of you.

I know one day I’ll fade along the path we never walked,
A distant memory drifting where our futures never talked.
But I’ll keep a place inside my heart where your shadow softly moves
Not the real you… just the you I once believed in.
The one I almost loved
into existence.

Maybe it was the illusion of you
And maybe that’s the reason it hurt the way it grew.
The promise of forever in a touch that never stayed,
The almost-love that held me as I slowly slipped away.
But you chose to let go… you chose to cut me loose,
Even as you kept your distance, quiet but true.
So I set myself free before your silence pulled me through…
But still – I will carry love
for the illusion of you.

And as time goes on… I’ll fade…
and you’ll become…
a beautiful distant memory.