Have you noticed how many women have ultimately resorted to aiming to be like Barbie lately? Fake lips, fake boobs, plastic surgery, botox, fake this and fake that, clothing that tightens this or excentuates that… a seemingly endless list of things. I understand that we all have different reasons for…
Over the last who knows how many days right now, I have scanned through the seemingly endless topics that I need to write about regarding the Krugersdorp Killers, or more specifically, Cecilia Steyn…. from the beginning all the way up until recent publicized events. I desperately wish I could just…
During one of my usual trips to visit Cecilia, a very unexpected and horrendous event happened. On that will more than likely be embedded within me for years. It was peak hour traffic. No cars were moving. Backed up… bumper to bumper. Cars everywhere. As the traffic light turns green,…
This is a VERY CLEAR WARNING to the “Elite” and their “minions” in this on going murder saga: YOUR SECRET HAS BEEN EXPOSED! And it was NOT through one of those who you have intimidated; it was through one of your own! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! Your continuous intimidation, harassment and…
I honestly think this is somewhat of a ridiculous topic but it’s come up a fair bit, so I thought I would talk about it. I seem to have an anger “malfunction” in my brain… I just don’t get angry… or, at least, it takes a LOT to FINALLY push…
All of these groups are connected, but are also not connected at the same time: Ria founded Overcomers Through Christ, and through her ministry outreach, she met Cecilia Steyn. Through the ministry classes that were held, people wanted to meet Cecilia Steyn. Some of these people were included into Cecilia’s…
Right now, I’m feeling the same overwhelming emotions that all my Authors talk about when they hold their books for the first time! It’s, simply, overwhelming… This is the first time I have decided to print Leviathan Walks and Fragmented Shadows. I never considered it before but because of too…
Ashes to ashes, everything turns to dust, but everything must. Let it fall away, so you can get up. Dust yourself off and be on your way. Stronger than before. Your past will haunt you no more…
MINDSPLAT! Can someone explain this away because none of us could!? Not even investigators or the prosecutor could. VERY weird events with Cecilia Steyn that no one knows about. PLUS … A MAJOR BREAKTHROUGH insight into helping people understand how we were so easily fooled!! Candice Rijavec · Astralling &…
The “weird and bizarre” moments kept extending regarding astralling topics with Cecilia Steyn… which still keep me wondering if they were just dreams or if they were real, yet it is impossible for me to deny them… especially with the vast amount of extreme evidence… and the bigger question being,…
Within the first few months, after haven spoken to the investigators, Erika was trying to stop me from giving out information about Cecilia and her group. My initial theory was because she was trying to see how much information I had, to then see how much of a threat I…
Since little Louisa was born, Amelia had often looked after her. She was like a loving grandmother to Louisa, who, every now and then, would pick Louisa up to spend the weekend. The first time I had met Amelia, was shortly after the feud for getting Louisa back from the…
Last night I was broken beyond belief… beyond words… beyond any actions that could be done to fix it… helpless… lost… Last night I watched one of the strongest people I have ever known become completely and utterly broken. What I walked into, I don’t think anything could have ever…
So… someone, linked within these murderous groups, decided to “call my bluff” after my last post… piling on with intimidation and everything that they could to break me into being quiet. I KEEP MY WORD: This is The Hierarchy of the Triquetra in South Africa… (Click on the image to…
Since the early years of my life, I had been repeatedly abused… in every way… in numerous ways… and in ways unimaginable. I had a brother who was about a year younger than me. We were inseparable… we were the best of friends. My brother, like me, had endured abuse…
Cecilia Steyn fooled people about her health and life being at risk, for just over a decade. This was lie was acted out so brilliantly that Cecilia had to constantly have an oxygen tank nearby, otherwise she might die at any given moment. After Cecilia had been arrested and the…
Cecelia leaving the occult was abrupt and unexpected, even by Cecilia, herself, as well. She had managed to acquire every skill and ability possible and had the ranking of being the most powerful in the world. Every demon was at her disposal. She was the bride of satan. She had…
When I had first met Cecilia, she only had her son living with her, who was about five years old at the time. He was the cutest little boy. He could only speak Afrikaans, so it was somewhat hard for me to relate to him because I couldn’t really understand…
Cecilia had a regular habit of giving Louisa a present. She would go to the shops and buy her daughter something, even if it was just a sweet but she would never get her son anything. This was always the case. There was clear evident favoritism. No matter how hard…
In the beginning of knowing Cecilia, I was not even aware that she had a daughter. It was maybe only several weeks, into knowing Cecilia, that I had heard the name Louisa a few times. It always came across as a reference to the name of a baby, but I…
With every occult child born, DID is created within that child because of the severe repeated trauma that they undergo. Once DID is created, the occult can then structure the DID systems accordingly. Cecilia Steyn had four DID systems, called: Platinum, Spider, Diamond and Pyramid Systems. Each system encompassed different…
There were many moments, throughout my friendship with Cecilia Steyn, that confused me, but the confusion was always met with seemingly logical answers from her… or answers, that were too exhausting to even try comprehending… I was, after all, still very much of an amateur when it came to knowing…
In addition to Cecilia’s already-inherited werewolf/wolf and vampire bloodline, she became skilled in abilities such as astral projection, telepathy, telekinesis, levitation, teleportation, shape shifting, walking on water, and so on. Astral projection is an intentional Out of Body Experience (OBE) that assumes the existence of a soul called an astral…
Intoxicated. Pain. Isolated. Shut off from the world. Closed yourself up, but that’s a little fucked up. You think your heart…
Not long into starting my blog, I started to feel like I was so opinionated, as a person, which is honestly not the case. I’m used to open minded discussions, with people, tossing back and forth of ideas and opinions, all leading to a greater, or mutual, understanding of things.…
I want to climb into the corner of a box, into the one on the lowest shelf, in the furthest corner of the room. I will hide inside, in the corner of the box, so no one will see me, and if someone came into the room, I could watch…
Darkness surrounds me. It wants to play. It wraps its arms around me, holding me tight. It says it’s my friend, the only one that’s there. It says everyone else is a liar, and that they only pretending to care…
Dear Daughter… Born of me or not, Know that I see you as mine. Dear Daughter… Even though we have not met, Know that I am excitedly counting the seconds until then. Dear Daughter… Know that you are not a mistake nor a burden, You are a choice, A priceless…
Believe it or not, I have only started watching the “Heroes” TV Series now. Okay… so after the first few episodes, I started raising the question about the character Niki. At first, I merely thought she was just a chaotic, troubled character in the series. But as each episode unfolded,…
This is somewhat of a sensitive topic for me but I’m also open to talking about it, about myself. For those of you who don’t know me or haven’t read other parts of my website: I have DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder), which was formally known as MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder).…
Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD), is extremely different in comparison to daydreaming, getting lost in the moment or acting out our roles in different scenarios such as being an employee, father, son, etc. DID is a complex psychological condition that is caused by a…
Towards the third year of knowing Cecilia, newer… different… members were being added to Cecilia’s friendship group. The difference between these people was exceptionally clear. The type of people they were, based on their personalities and background… and especially the way Cecilia treated them… were very clear indicators to the…
Quite a few months into knowing Cecilia, she and Dries wanted to go on a shopping spree with their children. Cecilia wanted to do it on a day where I was supposed to look after her… so I had to tag along just in case something happened to Cecilia. Initially,…
Before I start, let me first say that I am not talking about people who occasionally like to have a glass or two of wine, or whatever alcohol they like; nor am I talking about people who turn to alcohol after an incredibly devastating ordeal to gain a moment of…
How do you describe a pain, when there are no words for it? How do you describe a loss, when your mind still wages war trying to make you believe it’s not true? How do you describe the most incredible grandmother that ever existed? You can’t, because the dictionary simply…
This was just an ordinary day, a workday. I was completely alone and preoccupied on my computer, persisting on trying to finish a job for one of my clients… but my computer was lagging, the internet was slow, and the job was hard. It was a frustrating day, but I…
Electus Per Deus (EPD) translated from Latin, means, “Chosen By God.” This should have more accurately been translated as Chosen By god, not God. This is the god that Cecilia Steyn follows, or she was, ultimately, referencing herself to be god. Cecilia chose the group. Cecilia decided the acts. Cecilia…
With Cecilia’s high status in the occult, she, along with a rare few across the globe, have met the anti-christ. Cecilia had first met him when he was still a young boy, who was not even in his teenage years yet. His name, physical appearance and location are forbidden to…
The FULL RAW truth, of what has happened and what is still happening, runs FAR DEEPER than all the realms of Dante’s Inferno… just as Cecilia said it would. Exposing the CORE, is only the CRACK of the TIP of the iceberg… Electus Per Deus (EPD) translated from Latin, means,…
In the early stages of getting to know Cecilia, it was no secret, already, that those who were in the occult, were exceptionally wealthy. They held high statuses and high job profiles in society. The reason that most people achieved these high rankings, was because they were connected. The occult…
So early hours of the morning… as it usually happens… inspiration hit. I have to write ANOTHER book, while I am still busy with one (The Best Friend). I even woke up with the Book Title: “God & The Bizzare“. Yes, odd title… but VERY fitting. It’s been told to…
I’m a popular loner. I know a LOT of people but I hardly let anyone in… for various reasons. The one reason I will talk about is, simply, that I have always been this way. I’m just good at being alone… and alone, doesn’t mean lonely. Since I was born,…
I had reached a time in my life where I was trying to embrace and heal the trauma from my past, and my first instinct was to reach out to Ria, simply, because I knew that I would be safe… that I could confide anything in her, without judgement and…
Watch me. Hurt me. Do as you please. I am your toy. Your means for pleasure. Like a doll. Empty. Hollow…
Since Cecilia came from a 42 generational lineage, dating back to Ramses II, she had a very strong Egyptian bloodline. Cecilia was very Egyptian based when it came to many things, including occult beliefs and practices. A number of her DID parts had Egyptian names. Generational occult members also often…
I started binge watching the series “House MD”, again. I love this series for numerous reasons: Sarcastic remarks and events from Dr House (Hugh Laurie), intense traumatic scenarios, and not to forget, also learning the different medical complications – you can actually learn quite a lot! Now, in previous times…
Everyone has their own pain; A shadow of their past following behind them. Secrets untold, memories wished to be forgotten and wounds that still ache in the night. To think of the past, to remember the pain…
Since being involved in the Krugersdorp Killer’s case, I have received countless overwhelming responses from so many people across the globe. I have honestly lost count of how many messages I have received. Person after person sent incredibly supportive messages. They were overwhelming but these messages have helped spur me…
Since being involved in the Krugersdorp Killer’s case, I have received countless overwhelming responses from so many people across the globe. I have honestly lost count of how many messages I have received. Person after person sent incredibly supportive messages. They were overwhelming but these messages have helped spur me…
If you crawl through a valley of dry thickets and stones, cut and scrape your knees; Feel so weak that you could collapse like a pile of bones; No hope but despair; No peace but chaos…
Sitting in a room of despair, huddled in the corner, so alone, so afraid, so much in pain. Echoes of the past, haunting me, for fear of it coming after me again. Tears dripping down my face…
My mind is busy today, yet often I find that I am thinking about nothing altogether as well. It’s just one of those days I guess and I am utterly exhausted too, but the one thing that keeps crossing my mind, as it does every month, is thoughts on moving……
I officially have to voice the “weirdness” of this… since doing podcasts and since Devilsdorp aired July 2021, I had gotten used to seeing a certain number of viewers/listeners daily and from certain countries too. It was too predictable… every day. BUT then… from around 8pm 31 Dec 2021… jaw…
Some say it’s God, others call it Karma, the Universe, and so on… whatever you personally believe in, the result is still the same: “…The thing reaped is the very thing sown, multiplied a hundredfold…” ~ Frederick William Robertson “In this world, there really is a law of cause and…
Know Your Enemy was a training course that was registered under Overcomers Through Christ. Ria’s sole purpose in forming Know Your Enemy was to help educate other people, so that they could help other occult victims. With Ria trying to help rescue Cecilia from the occult, it became an extensive…
Ria’s aim in life was always to serve God, and to lead others to Him. In finding out that Know Your Enemy was educating people into becoming more occult-like, rather than educating them on how to rescue people away from the occult, she wanted to redeem this misled cause by…
Le Roux and Marcel Steyn were first introduced to Cecilia when they were only around 10 and 8 years old. Both Le Roux and Marcel were always exceptionally polite but also very quiet and reserved. They seemed very withdrawn, even within themselves. Le Roux and Marcel were exceptionally obedient to…
For seemingly endless months, if not years, this question has hounded my mind, “What is the purpose for my life?” … Basically, “Why on earth did I go through so much in my life? Why? What did I do wrong to deserve all of this… I was just a child……
After releasing my first poetry book, and the following few after, I received A LOT of feedback from people locally and across the globe; all thanking me for sharing a piece of my heart and in return, they shared the struggles that they are dealing with too. It was no…
It’s now just past 1am and I am glad to finally say that Leviathan Walks is ready for its re-release! In editing the last 10 or so chapters, I must admit, I found myself constantly repeating to myself, “Wow, what a messed up life I’ve lived!!!” … “How on earth…
To sum this up, 3 words: “people scare me”. In the last while, since my post Good At Being A Loner, I felt like I should give a more “rounded” answer to this topic because I don’t like giving “half answers”… especially when wrong assumptions are made and I seem…
As soon as Louisa had started to learn how to crawl, Cecilia had begun teaching her the ways of the wolf. Cecilia’s came from a werewolf/wolf bloodline, so Louisa would automatically inherit these same werewolf/wolf genetics because of their occult lineage. Cecilia was adamant in teaching her daughter on how…
Love is my curse. It sets me on a high, makes me feel like life is worth living, like I am alive and happy … For once, to be alive. But love is my curse. Fear torments me…
Wow. Where do I begin and end on this topic? Let me try keep it short… or short enough, otherwise this is a book on it’s own. Well, for one thing, loyalty seems like something from science fiction or a movie nowadays. We all look for it, few give it…
I have to pause for a moment… I am busy listening to Lullaby, by Nickelback………………… This song has me completely choked up, with memories and emotions of my past flooding back into my mind. My breathing has become shallow, my chest has become tight and tears want to come rushing…
In 2007, Ria held an Enrichment Week, with Overcomers Through Christ, at Die Adelaar School in Krugersdorp. This is where Ria first met Marinda Hugo (Steyn) because she was one of the teachers there. Since the Enrichment Week, Ria and Marinda had kept in touch now and then. With the…
With Marinda Steyn trying to discredit me as a viable witness, she ends up giving me far more credit without realizing it. Her unbelievable lie about me on the stand, during the trial, is both humorous and a major backfire on her behalf. Candice Rijavec · Marinda Steyn Lies About…
Soon after Marinda was introduced into Cecilia’s group, Cecilia sent me a text message while I was at home, asking for me to find several photos of good-looking men. These men had to be random, and unrecognizable. I did not matter where I would find these pictures from, as long…
The topic of my sexuality is, most possibly, one of the biggest issues that “wage war” on the inside of my mind, on a fairly regular basis. Sexuality, as a whole, is a massively disputed and never-ending topic world-wide as well, despite the fact that diverse forms of sexuality is…
One of the “hot” topics, in my life, is why I don’t apparently seem to age… a constant question that is asked… and some have even debated it, behind closed doors, for over 17 years. Yes, people, that I know, are stuck in discussions about my age! Now, before my…
Wow. Let me start by saying that God hears EVERY word… EVEN when you don’t say anything at all… For the last several days, adding to the months prior, I have been bombarded with thoughts… confusion… questions… wondering… hoping… insights… and more. My mind has been flooded with TOO much……
It’s finally 2021. New Year. Time for a reboot. 2020 brought many tremendous challenges for everyone. Most people are doubting and fearful of what 2021 will bring after what last year encompassed. For me, yes, 2020 had incredible challenges BUT it was actually and, in all honesty, the best year…
In this episode, my guest, Candice Rijavec & I discuss the South African Horror series recently released “Dead Places and Horror on Netflix” in a… Candice Rijavec · Netflix Watch Club – Dead Places & Horror On Netflix
NEVER BE ASHAMED OF A SCAR. IT SIMPLY MEANS THAT YOU WERE STRONGER THAN WHAT TRIED TO HURT YOU. Yes, this is a photograph of my arm. I’m not oblivious to the looks I get when people see it. Akward stares; thoughts racing through their minds. At first, I felt…
“To sleep or not to sleep”… that is my question lately, and more so as each day passes. I am UTTERLY exhausted! But each time I close my eyes, I don’t drift off into dreamland… I get rudely sucked into a vortex of intensely graphic nightmares… all night long. Waking…
Cecilia was obsessed with horror and supernatural movies, especially if they were extreme and gruesome. Within the course of just one year, there were over 100 printed out pages of movies that Cecilia had rented from a DVD shop. Her obsession was extreme. She thrived on them. The thrill was…
The aim is to destroy the works of the enemy that has long enough held God’s people in bondage. We will achieve this by breaking down the hierarchy of the kingdom of darkness within the West Rand. ~ Overcomers Through Christ Mission Statement. Overcomers Through Christ was a non-profit organization/ministry…
Everything revolving around Cecilia Steyn and her group was completely confusing, bizarre, and extreme, and more so with trying to comprehend that one person could orchestrate murders and get others to carry them out… leaving no evidence or traces that would lead back to the mastermind behind it all. The…
Sitting here… a smoke in one hand, cigarette in the other, and music blasting in my ears. Definitely not my “every day norm”… Feeling overwhelmed by life… or is it my thoughts? I am not sure right now. I know I need a “time out” to think, yet I can’t…
I know I had recently said that it feels like I have opened Pandora’s Box when I started the audio recordings for The Best Friend… but I am starting to realize, only now, how true this is. Everything is connected. Dot to dot, the mindmap leads to so much more…
There is one simple reason why you rarely or ever find photos and videos of Cecilia and the members who were part of her group. The reason is simple but it is not one you would ever imagine: the occult will steal those photos, or videos, and perform magic using…
Admittedly, I am still very numb from the incredible knock and shattered hope I received just two days ago. I am both at war with pain and peace… broken dreams and hope… and things I don’t have words for. But now, now I have to force myself to get up,…
I’ve spoken about one of my frequent questions of dating in another piece, but another topic I WILL NEVER see eye to eye on is “players”. Simply, “Whyyyyyy?!” I have posed this question to several players before, only to receive answers that I could still not wrap my mind around…
Live Radio interview with 93.6fm Radio Helderberg on 25 Feb 2021, talking about Cecilia Steyn and the Krugersdorp Killers. Candice Rijavec · Radio Interview 93.6fm Helderberg Radio 25 Feb 2021
Early into me having met Cecilia, astral projection and occult attacks were very commons scenario and very common topics. One of the disturbing facts, was that Mr Brand would regularly astral project into Dries’ body. Mr Brand would take full control of Dries’ body, leaving Dries completely unaware of what…
Reality shatters a stained glass window. Everything you know, lying there in pieces, now forming a mess and a pattern you do not know. As you go through, piece by piece, trying to put it back together…
Reginald Bendixen’s murder was extremely gruesome and sadistic, yet, up until the point of investigations with Cecilia and her group, there seemed to be no hard evidence that would help in finding out who had killed him. With Cecilia’s brilliance in manipulation over her group and her continuous extensive bragging…
Since Cecilia had left the occult and openly declared that she would no longer be part of it, and that she wanted to give her life to God, Ria had begun explaining the importance of the steps in becoming a Christian… and more so, the importance of Water Baptism. Cecilia…
Ria Grunewald is one of the exceptionally few people that I have ever known who is wholeheartedly genuine, sincere, compassionate, and completely selfless. I count it as a privilege and honour to have had her in my life. Ria vibrates love to all those she meets, simply, because her heart…
Ria Grunewald is one of the exceptionally few people that I have ever known who is wholeheartedly genuine, sincere, compassionate, and completely selfless. Ria vibrates love to all those she meets, simply, because her heart is for people. She always wants to help in whatever way that she can. In…
One morning, Ria was running late to get to Cecilia’s flat. She had to be there at 5am because Dries had to leave for work at that time. Ria arrived at Cecilia’s flat with her towel and clean clothes, and asked Cecilia if she could quickly take a bath. Ria…
A month and 1 day ago, my grandmother passed away. I will never forget the moment I found out. I cried so hard. I hit the walls saying, “It isn’t true!!!”… and cried more. The tears did not stop. One of 3 most loved, most teasured, most irreplaceable people in…
I don’t even know where to begin, except to say that I am utterly broken… and confused… so confused. I can’t hide behind a wall right now… I can’t distance myself from the emotions… this is very real. I am shattered beyond belief. For several months now, I had hung…
Brace yourself for this new discovery! I don’t know why I have only thought of it now?! Shorts are… or can be… the new diaper! Yes, I’m being serious. Let me explain… when I first got my 8 year old Spaniel, he was obviously not house trained at all or,…
Strange events happen your life, some beyond your control. They bind you and cause you to stumble, not allowing you to see what happens before you. They cause you to doubt and to fear, to question and to break inside…
Sing a siren song to call sailors along. Draw them in. Watch it all begin. Mesmerizing. Hypnotizing. Down they go, to the depths below. They drown. They die…
Cecilia often spoke of her two sisters, who were her half-sisters. They were Piet and Mara’s biological children and, merely, ordinary people who were part of the occult. They had no status or ranking, nor any kind of supernatural abilities as well. Because of Mara’s ordinary status in the occult,…
Knife shoved through my arm, ripped from elbow to wrist; Let it not be put back together; Let it bleed me out. Swallow broken glass, fragments so tiny I cannot see, slowly killing me inside; No one can stop it; Guaranteed to die. Handful of pills…
The soft kill murders were purely for greed. Cecilia Steyn had her group kill victims, in order to steal money. Money was the main motive or achievement behind these murders. There was nothing more to it. The victims selected for the soft kill murders were fairly random. These were the…
As much as I would like to say, “I’m over it,” I know that I can’t. In this moment, right now, memories randomly started surfacing… and, yet again, I realize that I am still far from over it. After all this time, after years of counselling sessions, after talking repeatedly…
My eyes hurt; The tears don’t stop. They say that eyes are the window to the soul; Maybe, my soul is leaking…
Do you ever get those days where your mind is overwhelmed with seemingly endless things but you find yourself utterly speechless? Even mentally speechless? All simply because so much is rushing through your mind, all at once, on so many topics, but at the same time, you can’t catch your…
Whenever someone was to be introduced to Cecilia Steyn, an interview had to be setup beforehand, and this was never to be done at Cecilia’s flat. Before meeting this person, Cecilia needed a full extensive breakdown of who this person was, what they did work-wise, and why they wanted to…
After having left Cecilia Steyn, numerous… countless… text messages… for months and years on end had been sent to me, all in an attempt to try find my current location. The messages were always sent from a variation of numbers that I did not recognize. However, the wording used in…
Since Cecilia had no means of finding my physical location, nor even having received a response from me to any of her text messages, she finally resorted to social media. After having started the Krugersdorp Killers Facebook Page, and after exposing too many of Cecilia’s lies, I started receiving manipulative…
Every time I visited Cecilia, the first thing she would always persist on doing is driving around Krugersdorp. Simply, just driving. Up and down the same roads… over and over again. After doing these routes for over three years, several times each week, this became very tedious. No matter how…
I can most definitely say that I wasn’t planning to start this book, The Best Friend, any time soon. It required too much “of me” mentally and emotionally to dive in… and each time I thought about how much I had to cover for this book… well, I avoided it.…
An ordinary traffic location for many people but a boundary point and a point of knowing for Cecilia Steyn. This very area is just one of the many boundary points that the occult had set for Cecilia’s entrapment within Krugersdorp. This was the furthest part of Krugersdorp that Cecilia could…
Cecilia claimed that for her wedding to satan, she had worn a pure white dress, which was to symbolize her innocence and her celibacy, which had been saved for this specific day: the day in which she would be married to satan. Members of the occult gathered at a specific…
By the second year of my friendship with Cecilia, I already knew the predictable routes we would use, when driving through Krugersdorp. However, Cecilia seemed to want to extend the routes to more interesting destinations. The one day, while driving, Cecilia excitedly says, “I want to show you something!” “What…
During investigations, information quickly came out that Cecilia, along with the rest of her group, had been searching for me since 2010 to kill me. However, they had never succeeded. In a report in the media, the remaining alive victims that were on Cecilia’s to kill list and my name…
This is one topic that I don’t think I’ll ever understand the “game plan” to. First of all, why is it a game? Why on earth do people feel the need to play it? I might be the only one that thinks this way, or maybe not. Hopefully not. Let’s…
With any murderer, or group of murderers, there is always a distinct pattern that is used in order to commit these crimes. After several murders, with these repeated patterns, it then becomes helpful for investigators to track down exactly who is committing these crimes. However, this was not the case…
Everything revolving around Cecilia Steyn and her group was completely confusing, bizarre, and extreme, and more so with trying to comprehend that one person could orchestrate murders and get others to carry them out… leaving no evidence or traces that would lead back to the mastermind behind it all. The…
The first night that I had slept over at Cecilia Steyn’s flat, was a very unsettling one. I was in unchartered territory. I had no idea what to expect or what not to expect. I was scared to fall asleep. The things that I had already heard, up until that…
The very first time I had left Cecilia’s place, is the very first time that I had fallen into the money trap. Up until this point, I had witnessed a gentle natured and loving person, being victimized and traumatized constantly. She never asked for anything, and she jumped as soon…
The utter disgusted look on Cecilia’s face for me being brought to her house, for “introduction”, without “her permission”. My complete confusion that she was nothing of what I had expected… Candice Rijavec · The First Time I Met Cecilia Steyn
Once I had confirmed with Ria that I would meet Cecilia, a date and time was set. I had met with Ria at her place in Florida, Roodepoort, first. We decided to drive in two cars, so I proceeded to follow Ria to Cecilia’s flat in Krugersdorp. My nerves were…
It was an ordinary and usual day with Cecilia, driving up and down the regular streets in Krugersdorp. The same roads, the same sights… it was honestly becoming rather mundane, but there was nothing else to do… that is, if the occult was not busy trying to kill Cecilia. Passing…
Gates of hell refers to the place of restriction for the unjust dead. The barrier that separates them from the paradise of the dead is the justice of God. Hell, or spirit prison, is restricted because there is a great gulf fixed between the two places. The gates of hell are various…
Cecilia’s grandmother was a high priestess, holding a prime position of power and authority in the occult, including holding a position over her son, Piet Brand. She was directly accountable to satan for the successes and shortcomings of those under her in the occult, so even if her own son,…
Cecilia Steyn’s mother, Elise, carried an exceptionally strong and rare werewolf/wolf bloodline. In addition to this, Elise also carried a vampire bloodline, which ultimately meant that Cecilia would become a vampire as well. However, even though Elise was a loyal member to the occult and its practices, she was also…
Through the months of knowing Cecilia, I had met numerous family members of hers. I had seen them so many times that they all became somewhat familiar to me. Some were dangerous and some were merely loving family members. On one particular day, that I visited Cecilia, Cameron[1] was there.…
A number of months had gone by, where Cecilia had repeatedly ridden her Kawasaki Ninja around the block daily… and sometimes, even further than she was allowed to. She was reckless at riding it. Cecilia lived for this motorcycle. It was her pride and joy. No one would be able…
Several years had passed and the financial strain had become quite a burden. Dries’ salary was not enough. I could not keep up with the financial requirements for the medication that Cecilia constantly needed. I was at wits end and burning out. I was almost in tears. When I went…
When I think about this part of my life, too many thoughts come rushing back all at once; so many thoughts that I honestly don’t even know where to begin when it comes to talking about it. I am yet to start writing my new book, The Best Friend… Why?…
This story about the Krugersdorp Killers seems to be a never ending part of my life. I was part of this story for 4 years. Escaped and helped investigators for the next 9 or so years… over an entire decade, seemingly “dedicated” to things revolving around Cecilia Steyn. When the…
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A few days after I had met Cecilia, Ria phoned me in sheer panic. She was distraught… paranoid… horrified… terrified… The night before, Dries had to go to his night shift at the police station and Ria was not able to be with Cecilia. So, Cecilia was left home alone…
In the first few months, whenever I had been at home and someone, from my family was with me, there would be nothing astral related happening. The astrals would behave, so that no one else would know that they were there. The explanation was simple: if outsiders knew that Cecilia…
Cecilia had an unnatural and extreme obsession with sadistic movies and with those who had orchestrated and carried out the worst of murders throughout history. She knew every famous serial killer’s background and methods, detail for detail. She found joy in watching gruesome horrors… demons, murders, blood, guts, and gore……
The second night, sleeping over at Cecilia’s flat, Ria and I slept in the living room again. Ria was on a mattress on the floor, and I was lying on the couch. Cecilia and Dries had gone to sleep in their bedroom. I could not fall asleep… but I did…
The definition of the occult relates to magic, astrology, or any system (group) claiming use or knowledge of secret or supernatural powers or agencies, that is beyond the range of ordinary knowledge or understanding. All religions have a magical aspect. In ancient religions like the Egyptian, they believed that through…
With every occult high night, Ria and several members of Cecilia’s group would be present, with Cecilia, at her flat. Ria was present the vast majority of the time, while the other members would rotate in taking turns, in order to allow each member to get some rest and peace…
Cecilia Steyn’s birth was prophesied about for 42 generations, dating back to Ramses II. Cecilia would be conceived on an altar, during an occult ritual, between her mother and her father. The prophesy foretold that Cecilia’s mother would come from a werewolf/wolf bloodline, which was a rare and exceptionally strong…
One day, not too long after Cecilia got a Kawasaki Ninja, I had gone to the back of the flats with Cecilia to where the cars are parked. As we approached the motorcycle, my eyes widened, and confusion hit me. There was a quadbike parked in front of the motorcycle.…
Early discussions with Cecilia involved a variety of topics, which is generally the case when you first get to know a person. One of the normal things is to ask what type of work a person does. Asking this question, is never a strange question. Asking this question, generally never…
Cecilia Steyn’s father, Mr Brand, was a high priest in the occult, who was also part of the Free Masons and Illuminati. He had an extremely high ranking and played a large role in human trafficking for the occult. He was feared by many. He was deemed solely responsible for…
I’ll never forget this night that I had slept over at Cecilia’s flat. This had merely been a few days into knowing Cecilia altogether. Things were still very new… and very weird. It was the usual occult high day and Dries was at the police station. Mattresses were put on…
Not long after having met Cecilia, I had decided to go on holiday with one of my friends. We had gone to a very remote destination. We were in the middle of nowhere. Long winding roads… mountains, trees, and bushes… hardly any people to be seen at all. It was…
During investigation, a count of over 40 murders was found, all linked to Cecilia Steyn and her group, however, only 11 murders were mentioned during the trial and sentencing. Through discussion with investigators, about the unmentioned murders, they said that the vital mission at hand was to get Cecilia Steyn…
Since the very beginning of knowing Cecilia, I had seen many people come and go. Initially, they were members of Ria’s ministry team, Overcomers Through Christ. For a long time, I did not think much about the people who disappeared because Cecilia had always given some logical, seemingly justified reason…
The werewolf/wolf bloodline was said to be an exceptionally rare and strong bloodline because having the ability to fully physically transform into a werewolf/wolf was only granted to those who had completely sold their souls to satan, himself. There would be no possible reversal or redemption of a person’s soul…
The werewolf/wolf bloodline was said to be an exceptionally rare and strong bloodline because having the ability to fully physically transform into a werewolf/wolf was only granted to those who had completely sold their souls to satan, himself. There would be no possible reversal or redemption of a person’s soul…
Within the first week of having met Cecilia, werewolf/wolf topics had already been overly discussed. I had already heard the variation of reasons for why Cecilia would fully transform but, as far as I had gathered, by that point, the transformations would mostly happen around full moon… or, at least,…
Cecilia Steyn’s stepmother, or otherwise known as her father’s wife, was Mara Brand. Cecilia claimed that Mara had extreme hatred towards her because Cecilia was not her child, and she envied Cecilia’s status ranking in the occult. Cecilia’s status made her appear more valuable, whereas Mara’s other children were seen…
All through my life, I have had several “go to” traits when it comes to sorting out what’s going on in my life or, mostly, sorting out my thoughts. Now, I am OCD, so not being able to “physically” compartmentalize my thoughts into categories, sub categories and, basically, an overall…
Record. Pause. Heart Racing. Tears welling up. Lump in my throat. Record. Pause. Sobbing my eyes out. Delete… Try again… Talking about all of these things regarding Cecilia Steyn is far harder for me than I let people realize. I could not put it into typed out words, but I…
As the months of 2020 passed me by, I had spent hours on end during lockdown revisiting the past I had once lived, all in order to to edit and add more extensive details to my book Leviathan Walks, for its re-release. I cannot begin to count how many times…
As most mornings go around 3am, I wake up with my mind on overdrive… sorting puzzle pieces and trying to make some kind of sense on some random topic or other. I think consciously, I have way too much on my mind; usually, a chaotic whirlwind of thoughts regarding work,…
There was always one teddy bear that would be on my bed, no matter where I lived. It had been given to me by my Nonna (Grandmother), long before I had ever met Cecilia. It was big and soft enough to snuggle into, whenever I would go to sleep. This…
There was a stage where Cecilia had gotten little Andries a kitten. He adored this little kitten. It was his world. It was the only love he received. But, about two weeks after having been given the kitten, and Cecilia seeing how much little Andries had bonded with it, she…
Over the last few days, I have been binge watching the series “United States of Tara.” I don’t even know how many times I have watched this series, since it came out; and yes, I binge watch it each time. Why? Simply, because it’s brilliant. Not accurate, but still brilliant.…
I must admit that I did not expect to be where I am right now. I did not expect to come face-to-face, head on, with the memories and turmoil from my past regarding Cecilia Steyn and the rest of the Krugersdorp Killers. I never expected that I would eventually talk…
I am utterly speechless… no words! Goosebumps! Floored! Wow! Over the last number of weeks, being flooded with people reaching out to me because of my book Leviathan Walks AND The Best Friend, I had never expected this to happen… I have been receiving message after message from those who…
I fight with voices inside my head. One voice so hard and mean, screaming at me; Angry at the people around me. One voice hurting so bad, crying and begging to be loved; But wallowing in pain. Both wanting life to end. Then there’s my voice, trying so hard to…
I am guilty! Lock me up and throw away the key! Like they say, “What goes up, must come down.” After two weeks of a sudden excessive burst of energy, redoing my entire house… and to extremes at that… my body finally hit a “crash”. Not a proper one, but…
What happened to common decency? What happened to being truthful? What happened to dignity and respect? What happened to “do unto others as you would have them done unto you”? Is it all just fictional or fantasy stories that we talk about but none of it really seems to exist…
During the course of my friendship with Cecilia, everything that I had known, that was murder related, were from the claims that Cecilia had for when she had committed murders because it was part of occult practice and for occult rituals. Cecilia claimed that she was forced to commit these…
In trying to describe or explain who I am as a person, even briefly, I thought might help people understand why I ended up being Cecilia Steyn’s best friend. And, also, to possibly help people understand why I did what I did, how it effected me back then and all…
Even though I firmly do not believe Cecilia has DID, if I had to consider that she might perhaps have it, then that leads me to wonder about the claims or, at least, the extent of the claims that she had for what happened to her as a child. DID…
“Silence gives consent,” could not be a more accurate phrase when it comes Cecilia Steyn. Throughout countless scenarios, each of us, who were in her group, remained silent because we were still trying to wrap our reality around her bizarre reality. We could not dismiss the foolproof dramatic and extensive…
“Silence gives consent,” could not be a more accurate phrase when it comes Cecilia Steyn. Throughout countless scenarios, each of us, who were in her group, remained silent because we were still trying to wrap our reality around her bizarre reality. We could not dismiss the foolproof dramatic and extensive…
This is something I have never told anyone about. Never once uttered even one word about it… simply, because it still baffles my mind. Candice Rijavec · Why I Ultimately Met Cecilia Steyn
Before I had met Cecilia Steyn, I had constantly wrestled with this issue tremendously. I was honestly scared about meeting her, especially after everything Ria had told me. I was also told that anyone, who meets Cecilia, the occult then goes and makes their lives a living hell and eventually…
You stand over me, while I am on my knees, wallowing in the dirt of my pain. You pick up a knife, and with your words, you cut me and rip me apart, over and over. Even when I beg for you to stop…
Into the third year of knowing Cecilia Steyn, she had insisted that we go to the Netcare Hospital, on Burger Street, which was across from her flat. There she went to the pharmacy and bought a pair of gloves and a diabetic syringe. At first, I thought the pharmacist would…
Busy reading The Love That Saved Me From The Love Of My Life, by Nomzamo Mosia. Each one of Nomzamo’s books have impacted me deeply, so I thought it was important to share this one chapter, from her book: We walk this journey of life not knowing the Love of…
Looking back, my life seems like a series of “splats”. They say, “You never know, until you try,” and “If you don’t jump, then you might not fly.” I am not talking about immoral risks or anything else of the sort. Nor am I talking about utterly ridiculous attempts that…
You should have killed me, when you had the chance but you never could. Never allowed to die; That’s my curse. Instead I live but yet dying; Never to reach an end…
One of the “hot” topics of late, is Zodiac signs. Many fully believe in them, while others dispute them altogether. Some even go as far as, daily, following horoscopes in order to figure out how to “live life”. Now, I do not fully believe nor disbelieve in Zodiac signs. I…